Please explain this to me. I need answers...?

Honey, you will never find answers for what happened or why it had to happpen to your brother, there are none. I know it tears your heart apart, but realize he is not suffering anymore. It will take a while for you to completely grasp what has happened. When I lost my dad I felt some of what you are going thru. I would always see cool stuff then think I just gotta tell him, and then realize he was not there. I would see people on the street I thought was him and then realize it couldnt be. These things are not strange, only human. Find stregnth and comfort in your family and friends, they will be there for you anytime you need. You can still talk to him, he just can't answer you back now. When a close friend of mine died, I wrote him some letters and then just left them lying open on my bed so he could read them if he ever dropped by to watch over me. It really helped me sort my feelings out and let me tell him all the things that I just coudn't while he was still here. He would want you to live your life to the fullest and not waste every moment being lost in sadness for him. Live your life now for him, for all the things he cannot do anymore. I will say a prayer for you and your family.